I have been home for so many days now that I am starting to lose my mind. I have been sick since August 16 and seemed to have contracted pneumonia last weekend. I just don't understand why I have been this sick for this long. I'm doing all the right things and getting plenty of rest so I guess I will keep it up. I plan to attempt work today. I say today because it is 1:45 in the morning right now...of course I can't sleep. Figures.
I have had a lot of time to think this week. Dangerous territory sometimes. I had a falling out with a friend. A whole myriad of emotions hit me with that one. Not sure if it can be fixed. I have truly valued her friendship. I'm frustrated and perplexed at this point.
Then there is a relative of mine. She perplexes me too. When we talk on the phone, it's always good. But if I don't call, we never talk. I have made comments to her on FB and I never get a response. I have texted her...nothing. I don't know what to do anymore. Friendships/relationships shouldn't be this hard, should they?
On another note, I would very much love to write a book. I pretty much live it and dream it. As I told my friend the other day I have all of these thoughts in my head but am always unable to put them to paper. I think once I make that hurdle, it will all fall into place. It was suggested that when I get these thoughts and ideas, I need to write them down and piece them together later. I think that is excellent advice. The book idea is pretty much all I think about anymore. I SO want to see my book on a shelf in a bookstore. Any bookstore! Well...not an adult bookstore. Not that desperate.
So here I sit - day after day, thinking and thinking and thinking. I just need the thinking to turn into something tangible and worthwhile.
Someday...♥
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