Helicopters Are Scary!

I so wish it were Friday tomorrow.  I am soooo tired.  And I am trying to make a decision about tomorrow and exercise.  I haven't heard from Elli if we are going to Fat Burning Pilates so if that doesn't come to be, that leaves me needing to decide if I go to Aqua class @ 5:30 or not.  It would be great for me to do - no doubt there.  But the though of putting on a bathing suit is just not working for me.  It is causing me some distress. Probably unlike most people, I don't care what other people think.  My issue is what I think.  And that right there is a huge problem and probably a good reason as to why I have mandatory group with this Optifast diet.  I will report tomorrow night as to what I decided.
I have a friendship issue that has been bothering me.  I have or had a friend and her name is Lisa.  Lisa and I used to be extremely close.  We met at work - my first job out of college.  We were so different yet we clicked.  We were young and had some good times.  If we weren't out, we were home drinking rum and coke or vodka and sunny delight.  I can't even imagine that now!  Especially the vodka and sunny delight.  How disgusting is that?!  I have known Lisa for 25 years.  We are still different.  She is a stay at home mom to 4 kids.  She home-schools them.  I can't imagine any kids, much less home schooling them!  Lisa has never wanted for anything.  I was always the less fortunate one.  Lisa is a size 1.  I am a size (well, never mind).  Pretty much nothing in common in those ways but when we get together, we can talk forever.  We have the best conversations and we have always had a mutual and loving friendship.  And then one day, we just stopped.  And for the last 10 years it has been an effort to get together.  Almost to a point of being uncomfortable.  We have usually ended up doing something with all 4 kids.  We still enjoy seeing each other but it has just been different.  But I have noticed the last few years that Lisa does not call anymore.  I believe the last 10 times we have talked, I have initiated it.  She always tells me how much she misses me and sorry she hasn't called, and "I would love to see you".  But we don't.  And we don't talk about it again until I call again.  I wonder how you know when a friendship has run its term?  Is this it?  Do I never call again?  I don't know.  And I don't know if it's a good idea to try and save it or to close the book.  I am so confused.  I thought maybe I should ask her, but it's been years since I have called and actually had her answer her phone.  She is always doing the child thing.  I don't know...it's just been bothering me.  For a long time, I missed her.  But I don't so much anymore.  Is that my answer?
60 Challenge...


Day 15
"A picture of something I want to do before I die"

I want to ride in a helicopter BECAUSE...I am absolutely terrified of them!  I cannot begin to say how they freak me out.  I have always been scared of them and then one day a few years ago I saw one crash.  It just fell out of the sky at a high rate of speed, hit the ground, and burst into flames.  Ever since then I have dreams (nightmares actually) of seeing planes and helicopters crash.  I can get on a plane but the thought of riding in a helicopter makes my chest hurt.  I want to overcome my fear and just do it.  So one day, I will conquer my fear! ♥

On Fragrance and Pie Plates (chick chat actually)

Day 69 - Finally hit and passed the 50 pound mark!  Yay! 
Lost: 3.4 pounds Total Lost: 53.2

We celebrated Admin Professionals Day today at work.  I somehow managed to sit through a lunch at Thai One On and drink green tea and watch everyone else eat.  Not fun - I would not subject myself to that on a regular basis.
I only did one silly thing today and that was I pushed the wrong button on an elevator.  How one can push the "Help" button but mean to push "2" is beyond me.  Only me.
Talked to my Aunt in Texas today.  She never, ever complains and I know that not all days are great.  She has Lupus.  I really admire her and hope that if I am ever stricken with a disease that I can have that same outlook and attitude.
3 new scents at Bath and Body Works...love them.  Its so reasonable to smell so good!  For those who know me well, they know I am a big fan of scent!  Anyway...Carried Away, Country Chic, and Into the Wild (which, by the way, you can get for $1.00 right now during the preview).
Am I the only one who is highly annoyed by Sandra Rinomoto who does Property Virgins on HGTV?  I can't be the one and only!
My other annoyance although it's just temporary (but it's a big one) is this royal wedding hoopla.  Honestly, people.  Viewers are actually ordering wedding cakes to be eaten during the ceremony which by the way is at 3 flippin o clock on Friday morning!  I guess whatever floats your boat.  Or your carriage in this case.
I got 2 very cool pie plates today.  I love pie plates by the way.  Some of them are so cool or pretty.  Mom's friend Carola gave me one that says pecan pie and one that says lemon meringue.  The recipes are on on the plates.  Love it!  So there is my little piece of Julie trivia today...loves pie plates.
60 Challenge for today...



Day #14
"A picture of someone I can't imagine my life without"



Celebrating Roxie's Birthday

Day 68 - Hard to believe that tomorrow is weigh-in again.  I am on the downhill side now.  I can't wait for this to be over.  It's the total boredom of the shakes.  Some days I mix one up and just stare at it because I have to gear myself up to chug the thing down.  It gets old.  I have gotten so much support from people and I really appreciate it.  I saw some pics of myself from this past Saturday and was really discouraged.  I sometimes really can't tell a difference, even after 50 pounds.  But I do admit to feeling better and there is a whole lot more I can do now being 50 pounds lighter.  It's all good...

Another weekend is over.  Easter came and went - what Easter?  It was just a regular day for me.  Actually, a rather long and boring day.  But I would take long and boring over work any day!
I just got an e-mail from my Dermatologist.  No skin cancer!  I think even she was surprised because it looked like cancer to her.  I actually had a ruptured, infected cyst.  It still has not healed but I assume it will at some point.
My Roxie had her 11th birthday on Saturday.  She got to do all of her favorite things.  She had a scrambled egg for breakfast.  A long nap.  A walk at the beach in Carlsbad.  A trip to the Flower Fields in Carlsbad.  In N Out Burger for a no-salt burger patty.  And a delicious meal at home topped with her favorite yogurt, Fage.  My favorite too.  And perfect for making home made salad dressings.  Trivial fact...I hate bottled salad dressing from the grocery store.  I will pretty much do anything to avoid it.  I always make my own!
Headed for work right now.  Help me!
Here are some pics from Roxie's birthday...



Tired after a wonderful 11th birthday!



A night at IKEA

Day 64  As of Tuesday...Total Weight Lost: 49.8 pounds

Nope - still not getting easier.  Food still smells as good as it always has.  But I am more in tune with my stomach as to when it wants food as opposed to when it needs food.  And that right there is very important.  I am over half way through.  My co-workers are being cool.  I love carbs.  Bread, bagels, etc.  We usually have Einstein Bros Bagels in the office about every 6 weeks.  Everyone is craving them but they said they are absolutely not bringing in Einstein while I am on the fast.  I told them not to suffer on my account but they are firm with their decision.  We have an office lunch next Tuesday for Administrative Day.  I have committed to going but I'm not 100% comfortable with that.  But I know I can do it.  And hope where ever we go has some kick ass iced tea!

In my continuing saga of the pain in my ankle and leg...I had to have a mega amount of blood drawn.  A bunch of specialty tests that had to be done at Kaiser Hospital.  So I went down to San Diego after work today.  12 tubes later...I was a bit light headed I think because I was overdue for a delicious shake.  But I always carry a spare in my purse and felt better after that.  I needed water though (cold water) so I went in to IKEA to buy a bottle of water.  Cinnamon rolls, hot dogs, ice cream.  For goodness sake.  Everywhere I go there is food!  IKEA was a good time.  I splurged and spent $9.00!  But for that $9.00 I got a cute red plastic watering pot, glass tea light candle holders, and 72 tealights in apple and berry.  Absolutely did not need any of it.
I really hate PT Cruisers.  Just felt the need to say that.  I have these thoughts and feel the need to blurt them out every now and again.
Here's my 99cent plastic watering pot...

60 Challenge...


Day #13
A picture of your favorite artist or band
"Chicago"